Well today turned out to be wonderful...SOrry for the rant earlier I was just a little flustered at the time being.  It is all good now.  I got to hang out with alyssa, carrie and justine, anna and myself which was loads o fun.  I balled wen we watched the notebook.  But when don't i cry at movies...heckles i cried during chicken little.   so of course i will cry during a romantic love story.

Well i would write more but i am rather tired.  oOoOh and I had ice cream today...sooo good!  Moose tracks....loved it to death...starting to feel some discomfort forming in the top of my intestines...but i dont think i will have te full affect until tomorrow moring.  so i will ttyl

love you all!

~Nikki

Hey All!

I have not updated for 4 days now...I now have 20 days until my Birthday!!!

On another note my mom is a total meany.  I know that sounds elementary, but it is just insane.  She says that I talk to her like I know more than she does.  Then today she is like if the job interfears with your personal life too much then you can quit and we will find someone else.  I am not gonna quit cause my mommy says that I need to.  It does not interfere with my personal life, hell I don't even have a personal life.  I have a public life, where I go in public with my friends.  Just ARG, I guess she has a problem with me wanting to know when we are going to go to work, so then in fact I could make plans for later in the day, but everyone knows when they work, they have a set time they get done.  I know with being a vendor there is no set time we need to go in, we go when it is conveniant for us.  I can't just sit around wondering when we are going into work.  Just ARG...I am so flustered right now.  The thing is that she says that if she wasn't working with me and telling me things to do that I wouldn't be talking to other people the way I talk to her, but really does she know how she treats me she treats me like I don't know what I am doing and that I am two.  The only reason I ever say anything to her in the tone she says I use is because I need to stand up for myself.  I can't just let her walk all over me, if it were anyone else they would tell me to stand up for myself, but I guess because she is my mother that I can just let her walk all over me.  I guess it is some unwritten rule.  I really cannot stand being with her all the time.  She doesn't like being around me.  I tell you what right now I am so glad that I volunteer and work on my Birthday...less time I have to spend with people that don't think I should stand up for myself, and let me walk all over me because they think they are better than I am.

Well I am gonna go cause I have to go to work with someone who doesn't want to be around me.  Then I get to go with Justine and Alyssa to visit Carrie!

~Nikki

All is lost...I bit my nails off today...it was some sad stuff...gosh darnit!!!  I am so pissed off at myself for doing so!!!  ARG  I am jst gonna have to start over...Day 1 starts tomorrow!!!

Today was a good day besides that. 

thanks for all of the kind comments for that last post, i was also cheered up the past two days by my wonderful friends! i am so grateful to have them here for me.  i know in my heat they will always be here for me whether it be in person or in spirit. i love all you guys.  i am in a much better mood now.  i had fun watching chicken little with all of you.  and yes when i first starte crying it was because of the movie, it just kinda extended because of other reasons, that were explained in my last entry...what can i say it takes a pretty talented person to be able to cry at an animate flick huh?  well i suppose i will depart from xanga for the evening.  have a great night everyone!

~nIKKI